Already 19 days in….

I can’t believe it is already January 19th 2026 and I feel like time has been flying by. I have made progress towards some of my goals but most days I find myself in my studio drawing blanks on what I need to do next, or what I want to do.

My heart is driven into painting lately even though I don’t feel like I am very good at it. I want to, however, work on my book but I am not finding the right words to express myself well enough that I think people would want to read it. I also want to do pottery but I feel stunted until my electrical is upgraded and my kiln gets hooked back up in the new space. I just feel lost.

I know the first thing to do is just sit and do it. Just like going to the gym, the first step is getting there and just jumping on an elliptical and start peddling. I just feel so much pressure to grow in the art space because I am not sure what will be happening with my full time job. I am stuck and I am sad and confused. I know what I need to do, I just keep getting in my own way of doing it. Start the videos, start the paragraphs, start the paintings, start molding the clay. But also finish all of the unfinished projects from the last 2 years to get them out into the world and out of the studio so I can grow and get better.

19 days seems like a small amount but it is already gone. I can’t get that time back so I need to make the most of the next 19 days and then the 19 days after that and so on and so on. Well, here’s to the next 19 days…